Do better now my child.

He came to my desk with a quivering lip,

the lesson was done.

“Have you a new sheet for me dear teacher? “ he said;

“I’ve spoiled this one.”

I took his sheet all stained and blotted,

Gave him a new one all unspotted.

And into his sad eyes I cried,

“Do better now my child”.

I went to the Throne with a trembling heart, the day was done.

“Have you a new day for me master?” , I said;

“I’ve spoiled this one.”

He took my day all stained and blotted, gave me a new one all unspotted.

And into my tired heart he smiled,

“Do better now, my child.”

- - Kathleen Wheeler

James shares!

Hi to all,

ROMANS 8:35-39

“What shall separate us from the love of Christ”

First of all, I would like to say a big Thank you so much you guys did a wonderful laminated simple cards with full of signatures behind it for my birthday. It’s very meaningful to me, totally priceless. It looks like time passed very fast; I always avoid to tell my age. Since now everyone knows it, I just wanted to thank God for what He has done for me. His plan of 21 years on me is so awesome.
Like I mentioned during my previous sharing, every single one of us must be ready for the calls from our mighty God. We might attend church every Sunday and pray constantly, spiritually we must be READY for Him too.

Matthew: 24:36

“But of the day and the hour no one knows, not even the angels of heaven, but My Father only”

Matthew 24: 44

“therefore you also be ready, for the Son of Man is coming at an hour you do not expect.”

Our Lord Jesus is a loving God. He is the way, the truth and the life.

Recently due to my radar course, I've been lack of my constant own diary updates and even Bible reading every night. Well our Lord is great; He knew every single small thing happened within and around us. I have few great testimonies to share with you guys, hope it can be an inspiration one and even an eye opener for certain people over here.

I never knew I can spend my 21^st birthday with new friends and even in a new town- Seremban. I wasn’t thought of my birthday could fall on our Sabbath day =) Then I went to a charismatic church in Seremban – Agape Church (a fellow of AOG churches). As usual, I knew due to my career I can hardly attend church on every Sunday like what you guys are doing. So, I always do my tithing of my 10% of my monthly income (refer Matthew 23:23) each time I attend a summon.

After church, I received a phone call all the way from Penang. My dad told me that he bank in a certain amount of money in my bank account for my birthday present. Surprisingly the amount of money from dad is more than twice the amount of what I’ve tithed! This is miracle, it happened me third this year the same case how money flows in when u ready to tithe, to be honest with you guys, I USED TO always tithe 1ringgit each time I attend church. (those days during high school)

Recently miracles happened to me financially which makes me have to fulfil what our bible says, 10%…that’s what I’m doing now. Though sometimes its normal our pocket are quite tight on that particular month. But putting your trust to honour Him, He will lead you the way. Mind u guys like the bible says

Matthew 6:3 But when we do a charitable deed, do not let your left hand knows what your right hand is doing

The moral of the story here is not about start doing your tithing and expect some return directly.

Well sometimes we as Christian, the one who believe the true God, being saddened with many things happened around us. Confused? You see, we must not let the environment to control us. As we going on our life individually, we must know what our purpose on this Earth is. Many people being reading tons of books or even consult the best physiologist but still hardly working it out,

If you have a strong WHY (the reason) then you will eventually knows your own HOW (solution).

Get my point?

To choose what you want to BE

Not what you want to HAVE

You can HAVE the biggest castle in the world but if that is not what you want to BE, you won’t be happy.

another similar case is

Seek Ye First in the kingdom of God =)

Seek and u shall find, ask and it shall be given to you, knock and you shall find.

Imagine, during CG every Friday, if there is a guy who intend to know about Word of God, he just stand outside jared 64 tembaga house WITHOUT knocking, do u think he will FIND the wisdom of God from our cg sharing?

No. Like what Jesus said, He had prepared us a big mansion in His Father’s kingdom for us. So all we need is to knock to Him, and we shall find Him. The Lord is always there for us.

lastly, wanted to remind you guys that for we must be patience and be faithful to Him

Matthew 13:9

“He who has ears to hear, let him hear!”

In Jesus name the most powerful name I pray

And the saints say? Amen.

~smooth sailing~

Navi-buoy

Aiching's Weekly! (Plus edition)

Prayer updates (hope I got them right. Additions more than
welcome) :-

1) James - Simulator course, thanksgiving on passing recent
  exams

2) Exams:
 Sandra(22nd, 24th Apr)
 Alvin (22nd, 25th Apr)

3)Jamie - Exam and Mom's eye - for complete healing of mom's
 eye.

4) Allyson - Mom's eye and finances to support - Mom going
  for cataract operation on the 25th

5) TY - rental of mom's house, provision and God's
  comforting peace

6) Karen - workload to ease. God's favour and hand upon
  Karen in her work, that she will also find favour in the
  eyes of her boss and colleagues. Perseverance.

7) Vivian - God's protection and favour in her work.

8) Lily - that God will use her in her workplace to glorify
  His name.

9) KC - thanksgiving for getting a job.

10)Han Wei - that he will achieve his 2009 targets. Blessing
in his work all around!

Let's all try to make a list of 10 things we're thankful to
God for each week. It's a good exercise to be remind
ourselves of His provision and love.

Happy Birthday!!

I would like to wish happy birthday!!! to boys n girl.
Happy Birthday Rohini didn't see you awhile, hope to see you drop by if you are free.

Sze Yao and James, my brother it is a blessing to have you guys in our CG. Sze Yao, good to have you as our friendly mascot.. Hamtaro..hehe...but most of all you are a good friend to all of us. James although you are far from home
but yet we feel your participation in our group have been an encouraging to lots of people.

KC

Updates, people!

Hullo...Gosh, I'm struck by how much is happening this week!

1ST UP,
ROHINI, HAPPY BIRTHDAY (Wed 15th)! Love you LOADS. (And soz
to embarrass you on here like this, hehe)

2NDLY,
Sze Yao's birthday is TOMORROW (Thurs 16th). NO kidding.

3RDLY,
And James' is this SUN (19th). Phew! Definitely a birthday month...

4TH POINT,
It's James' halfway point thru his "Profieciecy in Radar Plotting & Radar
Observer course". Well done for making it so far...
Let's cont to pray with him. Bro, let us know how you're doing, kay? :)

LASTTTLY,
Sandra has exams this week (till when? And is anyone ELSE having
horrible exams, too?)
Hope it's been good so far, woman! Remember, someday YOU will have
the pleasure of torturin students in the name of EDUCATION (Yeh, right)

_____________________________________________________________
*Some hsekeeping matters:
Okay, remember the first birthday celebs we had this year? Vivian and
KC's? Remember stuffing our faces with their yummy cake?
YES, it's been ages (and they've grown a lot older, too - just kidding!!!)
but
WE HAVE NOT PAID ALLY FOR IT.
As the group's official licensed drug dealer, I think I should also be the
debt collector everyone loves to hate (PAY UP! PAY UP!).
ER...I mean, can people please bring money to pay Ally this Fri? Please?

It's RM4 per person, ok. Thanking yous!
_____________________________________________________________
*Further notices:
CG retreat is being planned by H. Wei for mid-May sometime. Will leave
it for him to elaborate but hopefully this isn't too late a notice and most
of us will be able to make it :)

Church camp is from 5-7th Sept, at a hotel somewhere in Pg. Keep your
calender free, PLEASE! And start saving up for it; hopefully it won't be
unaffordable for anyone. Do let me know if finances will be a prob (when
church announces the exact fee), especially the students...
_____________________________________________________________

That's it. But FEEL FREE TO ADD anything I missed!
Oh, and read Chapter 10 :)

The Waiting Father (Luke 15:11-31)

Dear all, i'd like to jot down some of the stuff that Bishop Hwa Yung shared with us tonight, during the Good Friday's Service.

Please, if you guys have anything to add...just click "edit post" or add in comments ya! Afterall, it'll be good, to have everyone chip in whatever that came into your mind, what you have wrote in your little notebook, thoughts, experience or perspective, etc..etc...

Well, i might have missed something of what the Bishop have shared...so yeah, if there's anything that speaks to you tonight, do share it k? (:

• Love, this is a story about love
• God made us for Himself --> until we rest fully on the Lord, our hearts will go restless
• Each and everyone of us have wounds deeper than what we can imagine, BUT healing is there in Jesus
• God brings hope to broken relationship
• We all struggles with insecurity
• Many of us find security and love in the wrong place ----> work, bgr, fame, money, status, recognition, attention....
• We all want to be long for, claim, love, fight for, etc...
• We all need a sense of security, a sense of identity and a sense of selfworth
• Change, Heal and Transform ---> these are the glorious message of Good Friday
• Good Friday brings us healing, love, joy, security
• The story of the 2 prodigal sons:

1st son (younger son) :

Found God, after much sorrow, and tragedy, he look to the only one who can help him; his father.

2nd son (older brother):

The older brother found great difficulty to forgive the younger brother because he felt that he has done so much more that what the younger brother has done, he felt that he has always been there, that he has given his best to the father. The older brother's resentment rendered him just as lost to the father's love as his younger brother had been.

The son refuse to forgive because he was bitter.

Sometimes, because of a lot of things, we want to be accepted, we fight to be acknowledge, we want to be known, we work hard to earn something.

God :

God's great love reaches out and finds sinners no matter why or how they got lost. In this story, the father watched and waited. He was dealing with a human being with a will of his own, but he was ready to greet his son if he returned. In the same way, God's love is constant, and patient and welcoming. He will search for us and give us opportunities to respond, but he will not force us to come to him. Like the father in this story, God waits patiently for us to come to our senses. The father forgave because he is filled with love.

• However, sin and guilt prevent us from going to God.
• God is still waiting for us to go back to Him.
• Are we seeking approval, love, security in the right place?
• God is waiting.

Just.me.ally

An Easter Altar Call

I cannot believe it will be Easter this Sunday! I can have my teh peng again ;)
But more importantly, how have I spent my Lent...and how can I remind myself
not to be numb to this yearly event, that His death wasn't ordinary or meaningless!

Dear Father, won't you make me feel like a new believer all over again? :)

A VIDEO by Max Lucado:
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Auntie Kheng Hong's Birthday Celebration

*hey all, these are the update on the birthday celebration for some of you who cant make it* (:

it was a good dinner, i am glad that i went. indeed, i am blessed, by the presence of the people, by her and by the FOOD!! it was super yummy! and the place of celebration, is nonetheless, the favorite place of mine and other people of all time - flaming pot or previously known as ISARIBI!!

it was raining cats and dogs during the evening and i almost couldnt make it. but then, something kept me up, i couldnt take a nap, i couldnt rest, and coupled with the smses from kc, i just knew that i need to go. so i got up, changed and pooooof - off to fetch kc and isaribi. was late, im sorry.

but guess what?? so many people came to celebrate her birthday!!!! 12 of us! wow!! i didnt expect so many of them came and all are laughing and chit chatting when i arrived. and i was greeted with warm smiles and jokes..anyway, the main focus here is not me, it is her - auntie khenghong....

the dinner started off well, with us making jokes and catching up with one another. lawrence kt prayed for the food and auntie khenghong, and then she shared her testimonies with us...she shared a lot of stuff, about her trust, perseverance, faith, love and life in Jesus. i remembered her saying that "i am very touched..i went to the cemetery and told haryong that i would not cry, but i cant help myself but cry, because i really feel so touched. i am blessed with so many friends and family members who love me and care about me" and many many more.

her short speech, brings tears to my eyes, and some of the ladies too - auntie leanmei & auntie evelyn. she is a strong lady, a lady of passion, a prayerful lady, a lady of prayer, living her life to love God's people, because according to her, God has first love us, and we should love His people. she shared with us about uncle haryong too, saying that he always mentor, guide and mould her into who she is right now, uncle haryong is not just a husband, he is a best friend, a mentor and many many more. that is why, she misses him very very much. more tears came out at this point. we all miss him and we all feel her pain. though not 100% but we still feel it. she is strong, always proclaiming God's goodness, righteousness and greatness. she will never mock or blame God, even through her difficult time like this, she still praises God for His love, she knew and believe that God will and is taking care of her. this is the life God has chosen for her, and she will go through it with Him. no doubt, she missed uncle haryong, we miss him too..but, non can compare to the feeling she felt. i am very glad to see so many of us turned up for the dinner - myself,kc,leanmei, evelyn, chenghin,irene,chengliew,cordi,lawrencekt,calvin,lawrenceyeoh. i am glad that some of us from the CG are able to make it.

she has been a blessing in the lives of so many people, and she will continue to be. we all love her. tears came out from her eyes as we prayed, as she shared, as we sang the birthday song and after she cut the birthday cake. i guess, she is really touched by the love shown by the people whom care about her and also, as she misses uncle haryong.

as we continue with our tradition, all of us said the good things about her, all from what we have experience from her ourselves. prayers, care, concern, smile, perseverance, grace, mercy, thoughtfulness, willingness, passion, faith, trust, selfless love, guidance and many many more. indeed, she is a role model to all of us there, to some, she is also a mother, be it young or old, big or small. almost all of us, praise her and her late husband, uncle haryong. this couple, has really touches the hearts and lives of many, that non can ever count the blessing and love that they have given and shown others. they live their life for God and God alone, winning soul for Christ's kingdom, and pouring out all they can with what they have and praying earnessly and continously for each and everyone that come into their lives.

they really showed me that prayer changes things and always be patient with God's people. thank you for being such a great person auntie, truly you are a strong lady! YAYYY!!!!

we wish you, a blessed birthday! you are a blessing to all!

tonight, i know that God is gracious and in Him, all are victorious.


just me, Ally
p/s: please forgive the typo and grammer k? hehe =p

It's LiLY's birthday!!

H.A.P.P.Y. B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y. LILY!!!

May the Lord showers you with tons and tons of blessing this year - love, patient, joy, peace, encouragement, gentleness, and many many more!

Continue to shine for Jesus ya!! (:

!!!!!!HUGS!!!!!!

Another Upcoming Birthday - superly soon!

ATTENTION..ATTENTION...ATTENTION to all my beloved brothers and sisters,

let us not forget someone's birthday tomorrow (1st April) too!! jeng....jeng...jeng....

It is LILY's BIRTHDAY!!!!!

So yeah, let's wish her ya! be it via calls, sms, emails, or on the blog or during CG!!! hehehe...oppsss~ not to forget, presents too!!!!!! *wink*wink*






Ally <3

Alright, birthdays!

Did everyone remember to wish Alvin on Sun? :)

Up next, Lawrence's birthday is this FRIDAY (3rd April) so please do say something nice to him on the way in and out of CG!

The more creative amongst you could bring along something worthy of the occassion :)
Let's celebrate and appreciate one another on special days like these, yeah?

P.S. He's an ENGINEER...and he likes LEGO. Teehee!

Hey All . . .

Dear all,

First of all, i believe i owe all of you an update about my dad's operation..hehehe..so sorry about that ya! Thanks to all of you who prayed for him and also thanks to all of you who asked about his condition! thank you very very much and i really appreciate all your love and concern *hugs*
He is doing well right now and the operation is a success. fuh~ thank God! Thank you again for the prayers! (: I managed to share with him about God and i told him that i've prayed for him. and well, as usual, his answer is "alright..ok..thanks" - my dad is the cool cool type one, dont really express much, typical reaction for his age and generation i believe, hehe..but i know, deep inside his heart, he is thankful and glad that we prayed for him. tho he didnt show it out...

well, i have been praying for my family's salvation all this while and i am the only christian in the family thus far, the rest, they have yet to be a christian, but i have faith and believe that soon, they will all be the follower of Christ. Amen to that! hehehe..also, i have been praying that my family will know Chris thru me and i believe that God is slowly answering my prayer...

this is because, just last week, i got a call from my sister saying that my mum too, have to undergo the same surgery - cataracts. i know that this condition is very common and usual for people their age, but i was a bit shocked and shaken when i found out about that. i mean, 2 surgeries in 2 months time, under the same condition? that is pretty scary for me lor...my mum's surgery is scheduled in mid april and she found out about the condition last monday as she woke up feeling a little weird - blur vision. my dad had his surgery in march and my mum knew about the condition in march too~ so yeah, this is kinda a big news for me...

i have decided to pay for my mum's surgery. and i think, this is right as a daughter. moreover, i wasnt around during my dad's surgery in march, so this round, i just want to make it up lor..

well, can i ask for a simple prayer request? that you also pray for my mum? that thru all these, they will know Jesus? that God will use me and this situation to let His Glory and Love known to them and the rest of my family members? I pray that they will know God thru all the blessings that God has given me thus far - finances, work, safety, etc...i know that God has His timing and His timing is always perfect and i just want to stand firm in believing Him...

thank you brothers and sisters, i love you all!


ally <3

Email answer.

Hello everyone. =)
Firstly, i want to remind everyone that Kean Chai is doing a stellar job. Not because he does not make mistakes, but because he has put his heart into being a good steward. As his family, we should all support him and encourage him.It really is not easy to do this week in and week out. One way to do this is to really contribute to the group discussions. That is why i want to also suggest that we all take turns to write something once in a while, just so that we will also understand how sometimes it can be discouraging to share somethign and get no response. =)

BUT. . . . . . . .

I want to point out a few things:

the first thing on my heart was this: Not all people are inclined to speak out in public. But that does not mean they are not listening and are not attentive. We must learn to respect the differences in each other. I would rather we all feel motivated to share because we want to bless our brothers and sisters, rather than share because we don't want some cell group leader to kutuk me online. . . . . I am always very confident that every word that is shared in love will bear fruit. An immediate and vivid example i can remember so clearly is my dear sister vivian. I remember how when james wrote an email to us about no one remembering his prayer, she immediately replied! James - surely u were blessed by that? Good job Viv! Woot!

But that does not mean we should just sit there waiting for profound words to leap from our mouths. This is another way we grow. Now i don't expect all of you to be cakap banyaks like me - but instead, being mature means being balanced. Sometimes, if you know u are not the type, you should make it a point to try participating. Alvin - since u are my mentee - i will pick on you!Speak up more! hahahahaha (kidding).

With this, thats why i am really really encouraging everyone to go to the blog! Its an awesome tool - and James will be one of the first few to contribute to it. Thank you allyson for writing something too! It was an awesome encouragement to me, and i am sure to lots of us and Alyssia. Poor girl - put up the blog liao then like boh seng lee like that (for the benefit of surain - boh seng lee = no business / business ee'leh!).

Finally, it is good training for us to learn to share our lives. Right now - most of us are not good at it at all! I remember when we first started the CG (with jsut a few of us guys), we would talk about politics lah, work lah. . .everything. . . . .even holy holy stuff. . . .but we would never reveal our own selves. It takes lotsa practice! But it is God's guide for us to live. And it is going to take lotsa time and lotsa conscious effort. Some of us will have to fight against years of rejection, of feeling that our thoughts and our words are constantly judged and scoffed at. In the process, you will discover God, as He reveals more to you.

I really do miss you all. I hang the t-shirt u all gave me in my room, and every night i see it before i go to sleep, and i am reminded that we are God's gift to each other. Yeah sure we annoy the living heck out of one another, but that too is part of the growing process.

Do write me, and i will continue to write all of you. =)

Meditation of melody

Hey hope everyone is doing great! Its been a little quiet lately on my end, but its more because i am taking some time out to walk through some issues in my own personal life. But again, i want to share with you all this season of lent something that i have been able to do in my quiet time. I heard this song at church, and i decided to focus on the lyrics and share a little what this song means to me. I think Han Wei will know this one lah. . . .possibly aiching, KC and Lily also? Come to think of it, most of u should know this lah. Except small boy Alvin and not-so-small-girl Sandra!!!

I hear the Savior say,
“Thy strength indeed is small;
Child of weakness, watch and pray,
Find in Me thine all in all.”

Refrain:
Jesus paid it all,
All to Him I owe;
Sin had left a crimson stain,
He washed it white as snow.

Lord, now indeed I find
Thy pow’r, and Thine alone,
Can change the leper’s spots
And melt the heart of stone.

When from my dying bed
My ransomed soul shall rise,
“Jesus died my soul to save,”
Shall rend the vaulted skies.

And when before the throne
I stand in Him complete,
I’ll lay my trophies down,
All down at Jesus’ feet.

O praise the One who paid my debt
And raised this life up from the dead

[I hear the savior say] A most intimate and powerful way to begin the hymn. Did Jesus send a letter? Pass the message to soemone else? No. Jesus speaks to me in the first person - something we must always remember - that the mediums may vary, but God speaks to us personally!!!

[Find in me thine all in all] Another intimate offer. Instead of limiting the reward / consolation / joy to something external, god associates with His very being. And being God, He is definitely capable of satisfying all!!! Reminds me of the time God told Abraham that He would be His great reward.

[Jesus Paid it all; all to Him i owe] The paradox of Christianity, freedom from sin to slavery to Christ. 'nuff zed. =D

[And melt the heart of stone] My heart melts too every time i sing this line . . . .

[Shall rend the vaulted skies] What a glorious transition and a great picture of our passing. As we lay on our death bed frail and weak, the next step is a powerful resurrection that can set assunder even the vaulted firmaments of eternity! awesome awesome awesome line there!!!!! And you know, this gets me thinking - if even in death we have such great victory, how much more in the petty struggles of this life?

[I'll lay my trophies down, Alll down at Jesus feet] this hymn begins with a stature of humility and weakness and frailty, and also ends with us prostrate at His feet. Gosh what a beautiful way to end a beautiful hymn.

[Chorus] You all have to hear this version on youtube! Such a wonderful thing to see that modern hearts can revive such a beautiful song in such a classic yet relevant way.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XqQhZKpZVCo

Hiking

There's nothing like the beauty of nature - majestic mountains, bubbling rivers, rustling trees - all filled with God's wonderful creatures. Woven through these beautiful places are pathways and trails. Without them, you'd have a hard time walking across a swamp, over a river, or up a steep hill.
Our life is like a big hike. It's a journey. And with each step, new things come our way. God help us on this journey with our Bible as our guide.
What are you looking for in your future? What is the plan? What is His will for you? What is your calling? God will show you the path to follow. He WILL WALK ALONGSIDE you. All we need to do is to ask Him...

"Let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith" Hebrews 12:1-2.

- zonderkidz, backpack bible-

***

I had a bad day on Sunday morning, it happened exactly before i am going off to church. It is not such a pleasant day, i must say. Feeling hurt and disappointed, i started to sense the voice of the Holy Spirit asking me to open my bible. I didnt know how to and where to turn to, so i asked God "Open my bible? To where? To which page? I dont even know which chapter to look at"..having all these doubts, i sense that God is telling me "Just open it, and I will show you, I will speak to you through the bible, I want to talk to you through the bible".

So, i opened it..and yes, indeed, i did not hear God wrongly. He is really speaking to me through the bible - the whole passage i've written above, I hold my tears and I walked out of my house into my car, inside, i sense that God is telling me "Wait, dont go yet, read the bible again, I want to talk to you again." and there i was, sitting in my humble and faithful little iswara, reading my bible, enjoying the aircond..tears rolled down my cheeks as i read what He has written for me..

I know that I will never be alone and that He is walking alongside me through all my ups and downs. I know that at the end, I am a changed person, both for good and for God...

People will always disappoint us, be it our best friends, close friends, just friends, or colleagues. But, do bear in mind, my dear brothers and sisters, one thing for sure, one thing that will never change no matter what, is that - God will never fail us...

Amen~

Just.Me.All[y]

Deny Him?

Lent meditation from 14th March Saturday.

Growing up, I would often think that Peter was such a wuss. But really, as I grew up (and I always say, having more years means more opportunities of self-abasement and loathing, and a greater humility through the many many faults we accumulate) I found that really we all commit this same sin constantly.

And I asked myself – if people saw me today – would I even come close to even being recognized as a disciple of Christ? At least Peter was close enough / lived well enough to Christ to be recognized as a disciple. You have to be associated with Jesus before u can even have the chance to deny Him.

So, would I really be found as one of His by others? The answer does scare me.

Indeed, I have denied Him too in my choices, and in my conduct. God have mercy on me and forgive me and help me through.

I really know many things now - in my own life especially, why God called me back to Malaysia (called? He had to drag me back cause i stubbornly did not want to return. ). I don think i would honestly have been able to survive all the comforts this country has to offer. =)

Looking forward to seeing everyone again!

Lets really use this blog to be a blessing to each other. =)

Chapter 9: Getting to the Warmth of Forgiveness

Forgiveness and guilt.

I stared at my keyboard thinking hard how to write this post but an hour passed and yet only the three words and a blinking cursor remained on my screen. I am just starting to know and to get closer to God. When everyone in the Cell Group ("CG") asked me to blog for the CG blog, nobody knew how afraid I am to do so. I am afraid that I could not write like how a Christian should, afraid that I would write like a kid to an audience of adults or be be laughed at like one of those kids in "Kids Say the Darnest Things" and eventually afraid that I would let everyone down.

But I believe God has great plans. Life has been great until these past two weeks. I have been put in two separate situations which has immensely saden me and requires me to forgive my best friend and my colleague. I started thinking why these things always happen to me, should I not be me but be like them for them to like me. Yet, I still very bothered by guilt until Ben mentioned this phrase to me.

“Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.”
-The Beattitudes (Matthew 5:3-10)-

God blesses everyone, even the weak. We judge ourselves and/or others too harshly that we fail to see and feel God's love, grace and mercy and acceptance equally to us and/or others. I do now, God uses people and I see and feel all His love, grace and mercy and acceptance through the CG. God uses me through my experience to now write this post.

In conjunction with Chapter Nine of the book "How People Grow", we asked everyone "Do you have any guilt and how do you deal with it?"

Many were confused and were of opinion that if they were to do anything wrong eg. stealing, killing and etc., they should not feel guilty because Jesus died on the cross and took our sins and guilts away.

Everyone was told to read the book which explained the difference between guilt and godly sorrow. Guilt is self-focused on how bad you are while godly sorrow would lead to repentance and eventually the want to make things better.

Many examples of guilt were discussed.

X detached herself from God when she went out with a non-Christian and felt the guilt everytime she was with him. She could not take it and decided to let him go.

Y mentioned that she finds it easy to forgive yourself for hurting someone but there are consequences to her hurtful actions. God might forgive her but will others?

Z felt the guilt from a social standing point of view. Should he change inaccordance to other people's standard? As a result of such, anger often consumes his confusion.

How do they deal with it? We shall only find out next week :)

Signing off,
Alyss