I stared at my keyboard thinking hard how to write this post but an hour passed and yet only the three words and a blinking cursor remained on my screen. I am just starting to know and to get closer to God. When everyone in the Cell Group ("CG") asked me to blog for the CG blog, nobody knew how afraid I am to do so. I am afraid that I could not write like how a Christian should, afraid that I would write like a kid to an audience of adults or be be laughed at like one of those kids in "Kids Say the Darnest Things" and eventually afraid that I would let everyone down.
But I believe God has great plans. Life has been great until these past two weeks. I have been put in two separate situations which has immensely saden me and requires me to forgive my best friend and my colleague. I started thinking why these things always happen to me, should I not be me but be like them for them to like me. Yet, I still very bothered by guilt until Ben mentioned this phrase to me.
“Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.”
-The Beattitudes (Matthew 5:3-10)-
God blesses everyone, even the weak. We judge ourselves and/or others too harshly that we fail to see and feel God's love, grace and mercy and acceptance equally to us and/or others. I do now, God uses people and I see and feel all His love, grace and mercy and acceptance through the CG. God uses me through my experience to now write this post.
In conjunction with Chapter Nine of the book "How People Grow", we asked everyone "Do you have any guilt and how do you deal with it?"
Many were confused and were of opinion that if they were to do anything wrong eg. stealing, killing and etc., they should not feel guilty because Jesus died on the cross and took our sins and guilts away.
Everyone was told to read the book which explained the difference between guilt and godly sorrow. Guilt is self-focused on how bad you are while godly sorrow would lead to repentance and eventually the want to make things better.
Many examples of guilt were discussed.
X detached herself from God when she went out with a non-Christian and felt the guilt everytime she was with him. She could not take it and decided to let him go.
Y mentioned that she finds it easy to forgive yourself for hurting someone but there are consequences to her hurtful actions. God might forgive her but will others?
Z felt the guilt from a social standing point of view. Should he change inaccordance to other people's standard? As a result of such, anger often consumes his confusion.
How do they deal with it? We shall only find out next week :)
Signing off,
Alyss
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